I decided if I really cared about the person I wanted to be with, I needed to find out more about it and how I could be supportive of her. I also play with my hair a lot, twisting it, pulling at it, constantly fixing it, which can be seen as self-focused and I worry it deters people. I also live with depression which can amplify the feeling. I question my validity, my ability to succeed and my beauty on a daily, almost hourly basis. It helps me feel progress in a tactile way. Although I can walk the talk, I am super insecure.
Het is goed voor je ego, want hij zal moeite doen om je te versieren. En de eerste date is altijd een beetje onhandig. Dus je kan tegelijkertijd genieten van die onhandigheid en zijn pogingen om jou te verleiden.